The First Footprints of the Journey

Here I am, writing another blog amongst the millions of blogs that have already been written. I, along with millions of others, apparently think that I have something that the world needs to hear. I have had a long-standing battle taking place between my heart and mind. My heart is screaming for all it’s crazy ideas to be lived out, and there are moments that it seems that my heart has won the fight. It is elated thinking it has the freedom to pursue all it’s desires and put into action all it’s life changing ideas. It celebrates with boundless, positive energy and with a huge, contagious smile. But the celebration is temporary as the mind always seems to retaliate by allowing the devil to come in, leading me to doubt my gifts and passions. My mind starts expressing concerns of what others might say or think and allows itself to be plagued with the constant reminders of my past mistakes and bad choices, amplifying them until they are the loudest voices in my head. It’s not very long before my heart also hears and accepts the criticism as truth.

So here I am, claiming my piece of real estate in cyber space. This property is aptly named “The Follow Through” because I am determined to stop running and actually follow through and complete what has been in my heart and mind for a long time now. I have had this persistent nagging of writing this for almost a year. But in true Gina fashion, I haven’t done anything but jot down some notes and inspiring verses and quotes in my notebook. It wasn’t until one morning, when I was reading my daily devotional written by Joyce Meyers that I felt I had been called out. She writes, “Some people spend their entire lives starting and quitting. They never follow through.” I had known what I would name my blog MONTHS before that day, and I do not believe in coincidences. I do believe God speaks and communicates with us in many ways, and on this day, he got fed up with my excuses and slapped me upside the head.

I know that I have disappointed and let down many of my family and friends as well as some past employers because I failed to follow through with ideas, projects or commitments. I have disappointed myself not just because great things could have come out of those opportunities, but because I did not walk in a manner worthy of being the example I wanted and needed to be to my children. I have also failed at applying the faith that I say I have. My actions would make one question who I claim to be as a Christian.

By this point, you are probably reading this wondering if this is my testimony of how I am a believer of the one and only Almighty God and my Savior Jesus Christ. I don’t feel it is, as to me that is something so much deeper and personal than what a blog conveys. Since Covid, I have taken a bit of a break from the demands and distractions of life and have had more “Me and God” time. I’m reprioritizing my life, eliminating physical, social and emotional clutter. Committing myself to only those things that I can follow through with and releasing my heart to live freely without being bullied and shamed by doubt and insecurities.

So I’ve settled in nicely here in my new domain. I feel pretty comfortable, to the point of putting my feet up and calling my new piece of real estate “home”. At least for my heart and it’s crazy ideas. It’s needed it’s own space and I think it’s going to settle in nicely here. My hope is that you also feel at home and welcomed to accompany me as I begin my journey of following through. No GPS or fanny pack needed, just an appreciation of the experience and the awe of the beauty to be seen.

Love and Prayers my Friends.